GOD’S CATHEDRAL
The stained glass window
This poem was placed on copper and installed in the Albion Fair Arts and Crafts Barn, in Albion, PA. It was part of the Erie County Poet Laureate project of now past Laureate Sean Thomas Dougherty.
of the October leaves
before the sky
God’s Cathedral
The waves rush ashore
leaving the sand a virgin
for the next set of footprints
The gulls screech the hymns
of a million years
Dedicated July 2, 2022
NORMAL
I watched my mother
contract polio
I watched my mother
kick it to the curb
Talk about pick yourself
up by your boot straps
She had to do that
with only one usable hand
Life wasn’t difficult
she turned every obstacle into
a personal challenge
She could tie her sneakers
one-handed
faster than I
could with both
We all learned adaptability
I learned how to crack an egg one-handed
I ironed on the wrong side of the ironing board
and I had no clue why
One time as a thirty year old shop worker
I was sweeping the floor
A coworker asked “why do you do it like that?”
I had my right arm
wrapped around the broomstick
and didn’t use my left
Because I learned my normal
from my disabled mother
I realized that day
Normal is just a setting on your dryer
My mother contracted polio when I was six. I learned everything through my mothers adaptations.
TEAM DODGE BALL
I was the
frail little scrawny girl
they always picked last
and always went after first
And then in sixth grade,
Pat Wagner
the kid who was
already like six foot
and the hero,
was up
Ball in hand
he looked right at me
and smiled
I knew this was it
I could see
the blood in his eyes
The ball hit me
in the stomach
so hard
that it took me
off my feet
I hit the floor
wham
on my butt
I couldn’t breathe
I gasped air in
Through the fog
I could hear cheering
and I felt shame
When I looked up
it was my team cheering
I looked down
and realized
the ball was still
wrapped in my arms
I could taste
red rubber
and Pat Wagner
mouth agape
was out
Without a doubt this is a fan favorite when I am out reading.
STEP DAD
So few memories of my biological beginnings
Just past pictures of my mother’s disabled struggles
Her husband, my father
never capable of being a real man
or someone my mother could depend on
Gone, and good riddance
I was half past ten when my step father walked in
to my life for the first time
My mother offered him every excuse to run
A mother of two
would be no fun
even if she wasn’t damaged
Well, he was having no part
of hearing of her imperfection
In fact
the correction
You are perfect for me.
Still in the back of my mind
HE wasn’t really my father
It took years
multiple tears
on several occasions before I accepted him
Then, when my sons were teens
and I was between divorce and sanity
I saw the light
How my step father
never instigated a fight
It was an impetuous girl
whirled about
in the drought of failed family
Who out of immaturity
had lashed out doubt
and now turned about
in great thanksgiving
for living
under the careful protection
and direction Of my Step Up Dad
MY ROAD
My road, has been a bumpy lot
fraught with
trials and great tribulations
Intimidation, humiliation
and finally determined exasperation
which led to escape
There was no caped crusader
Just a single Mom
walking like a Wallenda on a rope so tight
with a fright filled heart
that forced each foot forward
I remember the moment when
I realized I had gained
full balance I carried that load
high wire no net
No regrets
Just pushing through
to my next stop
Each time in my life
that I believed all lessons learned
A warning shot could be heard overhead
There are many of my loves
Missing in action not finished with life
Gone, just the same
Each time
I asked God to be my bones
and move on I did
I would close the lid
or turn the page to
my next chapter
To capture the next adventure
I have painted, crafted, and written myself
from the depths of despair
to the top of the stair
more times than this
anti mathematician
Can not count
I encourage you;
Who feel, life has passed by,
or left you dry
to take a walk on my wild side
Caress the bumps and lumps
Do not ride your brakes too hard
and relax your grip
Try a trip on my road
It is a wild ride…
THE NOTE
In 1968
My two girl friends and I stood
on the corner
outside of school
the last day of classes
We joked
about going to school in 1969
We huddled together
and carefully
unfolded the note.
The paper was pressed
in half, lengthwise
then in half lengthwise again
Bobby had then taken the long thin column
and creased it triangularly
all the way
up the long paper white formation
and finally tucked that last quarter inch inside, itself.
After taking her time undoing
as to not tear the precious piece
Charlene smoothed the
lined notebook paper
across her thigh
with her hand
Finally,
after inhaling deeply
She repeated what she read
Charlene,
I really like you.
Bobby
We giggled like school girls
Because, after all
we were.
I remember this
Forty some years later
and I wonder
will girls from today
remember a text
the same way?
This was a true story I will never forget. Tactile memories are being removed from our younger people.